I find myself lately needing to get a grip on things. I have been very melancholy lately and feeling very edgy. Maybe I just need to step back and step out of things to do this. I feel like I always try to do the right thing and think positive in life but where is the reward in putting so much energy into it.... Pay no attention to this post my feelings have been hurt lately by someone I really looked up to and I just need to get over it...putting it in black and white might help me see how ugly it is..... I will be back to myself soon.